good day

Some days are really really good. Today was one such day. It was so.........nice. I laughed. a lot. I spent time with people that I genuinely like. It was one of those days when you just don't feel like going home.When it becomes difficult to stop smiling. When it sucks to say goodbye.
HSR is a good place now.

Hero

I was watching a documentary on the 9/11 incident the other day and this particular story really got to me.
One man said that he was trapped on one of the floors of the building. The room was pitch black and filled with smoke and fog. He heard some people calling out "Is anybody there?".
So he called back to them and they asked him to follow their voices. They didn't continue on their way down till he was helped out of the rubble. He was finally going down to safety. He knew where he was going now and he couldn't wait to see his family.
He and the other people who were rescued hurried down the stairs but he noticed that the men who had saved him stopped at every floor and called out to see if there was anyone they could help.If they saw that someone needed their help, they didn't hesitate for even a second to go in and get them.
This is what the man who was hurrying down to his family said - " We all wanted to get out of that building that was suffocating us. But that is the difference between heroes and me. I just went down to safety, to meet my family while those other men said NO. They weren't going to let people die. They knew that this thing had happened to all of us and they were going to do all they could to help people."

Those men were never seen again.

Many people were saved by them I guess.
Most were in a hurry to go down to safety and wouldn't have given those men a second look.
Some would have turned back and mumbled a thanks. Only a handful would have turned around, and looked into their eyes with gratitude.
They were life savers, those men were.
They show you that there is still good left in this world.

I want to be a hero.
But it's not easy. The courage you require.
To be a hero you also need to help people who don't care about what you did and are not thankful at all.
It's tough. Not being appreciated.
That's the worst feeling.
But there are still men who do it.
They don't need others love or encouragement or appreciation.
They just do it because someone has to.

I love Shahrukh Khan.
There.
I know some people hate him, but he is my favorite actor.
Kal ho na ho was the movie that made me fall in love with him. what a movie.
It's funny, but I want to be everything that SRK was in that movie.
He is so fun loving and just wants to make everyone's life better.
He loves Naina but doesn't want her to fall in love with him because he doesn't want her to hurt when he dies.
He also shows that its okay for him to feel bad and to cry and he cries a lot in that movie which in turn means that I cried a lot during that movie.
This is sort of how it goes when I watch kal ho na ho -
SRK: *smiles*
Me: *smiles*
SRK: *laughs*
Me: *laughs*
SRK: *cries*
Me: *floods the place with tears*

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The fellowship of the ring

I just finished watching the first movie in the lord of the ring series and it was 3 hours of pure awesomeness. I loved it so so much.
I did try to read the first book or the first part of the lord of the rings last year but failed because I felt like it wasn't going anywhere and that it was moving to slowly. But now, with newly found enthusiasm I am going to read it and this time I WILL succeed. I feel like there is just too much that I will miss out on if I don't read this series.
The characters were all so wonderful, but I feel like I hardly know them at all. I am very excited to start this series.
There was one part that I really liked. It was when Frodo tells Gandalf that he wishes that the ring had never come to him and that none of this had ever happened.
Gandalf replies by saying " so do all who live to see such times , but that is not for them to decide. All you have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to you. "

That is so true. Things will happen to us and we may not like it but all we can do is decide on how to spend the time that we have.

more sketches

sketches

Did these last night. Started sketching because my friend Surya gave me some sketch pencils. These aren't perfect but I'm really enjoying it.

They are soldiers btw.

Is it better to burn out than fade away?

"It's better to burn out than fade away."
Kurt Cobain said that.
Many people look up to him and that quote.
Here's what I think-
What a jackass.
He justified committing suicide by saying that and I think that that is unbelievably selfish.
So many people loved him and he let them down.
He had a child who is now fatherless.
Why?
Because he was bored and not having enough fun?
He gave up. He was a quitter.
He also probably missed out on some really good stuff.
Don't add him to your list of inspirational people.
There are people in this world who have it hard and who fight hard every day to make ends meet and to stay alive when instead they can kill themselves.
I know one thing.
I'm never going to give up.
It's not something I do and hopefully that stays the same.

Dear Zachary

I just watched this film/documentary and it has scarred me for life.
Maybe I would have been better off not watching it. Maybe not.
In my opinion it one of the most well made documentaries ever.
I still can not believe that what I watched was a true story.
A number of crazy emotions are running through my brain right now.
wow. just wow.

warning- the emotional impact of this film is very very heavy.

I'm so happy today.
I have the best seniors in the world. They are such amazing people and I am so happy that they are my friends.

........

I'm 16 years old right now.
I won't be for very long though.
It was a good year.

Luck

What does that word even mean?
Some people say that they don't believe in luck, but what is there to believe in?
Things happen.
That's all.
It's up to you to decide if it's a good thing or a bad.
Sometimes good things happen to people and they call themselves lucky.
Someone told me that only those who consider themselves to be lucky get lucky.
That probably doesn't make sense. it's okay.

welcomehome

In the past 4 days I have watched more than 200 videos, all of them about army soldiers coming home and surprising their loved ones. I can not get enough of these videos and I am so glad that they exist.

I want to join the army. I don't know if I have it in me but it's something I want to do. 

I want to serve my nation. 

Chandru, the auto driver

Today I met a really nice auto driver named chandru. He wore a monkey cap and was in his mid 20s or 30s I'm guessing.
Normally I wouldn't talk to random auto drivers but  he was different.
He asked me to pay 40 rupees when the ride would have normally cost around 25 to 30 rupees.
I agreed because it was late and I wanted to go home. Instead of just being happy with the extra 10 rupees, he went on to ask me why I had agreed.
He told me that next time someone asks me for extra, I should ask them why and not give in.
We went on to have a nice conversation about where he was from and how he wanted to go back to his native Mandya and start a new business.
I really liked this driver. I feel like he taught me something in that 5 minute journey.
It's times like these when you see that there are nice people who care a little. I like this life that I'm living. I like this world and the people in it.
Some horrible people might make me change my mind because of some stupid incident, but for now, this is how I feel. And I like it.
Where ever you may be Chandru, I hope you have a good life
Thanks :)